Someone once said there’s nothing to fear but fear its self, but what do you do to reave that fear. That constant thought running through your mind. How do you take away that regret that is stuck inside you? I can’t just rip it out and forget. There has to be someway to get over this. I need to know that you can love something and that’s it. No more to it. I need to trust that I can keep my promise to myself to god. I dread on it every day, knowing that my own word will brake. But my heart will shadier ether way I turn, nether path I take from here is right. And they’re no room nor time to build. High school coming around the Conner and it scares me to think that every thing can be lost in 2 year of your life. To go on with this pain is unbarring and heartless of me to give up. I need to trust you and myself with this abstanes, its just so hard to let you down, I want to do it for you for u and u more in love with me than I can take. There is nothing to fear but LOVE. But sometimes love can fear you.

\ts hard to imagin being in love. you never think it would happen to you. its like the things you hear about in fary tales. the princess is save by the prince and they fall in love and live haply ever after. well for the first time ever i have found my prince. i dont think he will ever understand how i fell. i dont even somtimes. i catch my self smileing at the sound of his voice in my head. his smile,his hugs,his kiss. it all overwelms me so much that i catch my self falling over and giggling. its kinda weird to think this boy who was a band/drama nerd who i may menchen is way smarter than me had fell in love with some dumb preppy girl who had no idea were she was going in life. somehow he is leading me in the right way. down the right path, im dicovering things i never have before. his so amazingly perfect that i cant ever stop thinking about him. and this is probly the 3,000 thing i have writtin about a boy but the first i have writtin about someone i loved.